One of my very close friends from Northern Alberta was murdered in May of this year.On top of that it was done buy her father. He killed himself, along with My dear friend Erika and her mother. I am feeling lost and sad Since we were born 28 days appart and she was so young. Murdered 16days before her graduation. I try and tell myself she is in a better place but that for some reason would be a lie on my behalf. I have no closure, i dont know where she is in a biblical sense, she was far from a christian... But i love her non the less. Maybe it is my fault she was not saved. I wish i could try and show her more of how wonderful God is but she had this fear of going into a church, i didnt fource it i wanted her to still be my best friend... We had soo many good times, and bad. I sit her sobbing over her death knowing the truth and hating it and blaming myself. I tried to convince myself that oneday we will see each other again and yet no comfort is found in that. Lying to myself can not bring back the past, or benifit my future... I love her with all of my heart and i hope that she knows that she was like a sister to me.
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