My little sis
Myleena is getting so big she is already one and a half!! Look at those sweet blue eyes.:)
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A grumpy face?
This has to be one of the utter most concerned faces i have ever seen in all of my 18yrs. Noah, Is a perminate blessing, a dream come true and the second love of my life... He is always full of smiles. I could not imagine myself with out him. He makes me a better person. He has taught me soo much and to lean on my heavenly father more. Noah is the essence of innocence and Joy. I look at him with Joy in my heart and an unconditional love. He has the ability to make everything okay when everything in my bipolar brain is all messed up. I haven't thought about suicide or self harm since he came into my life as a small spec inside me,... He is perfect and an absolute joy. His daddy and him look soo much a like, but at the same time he looks like my brother and that is a crazy feeling. He looks more like my Brother whom died at birth. I cant imagine what my mother went through when that happened, No wonder my dad is soo messed up. My step dad and mom are thinking about a divorce and in my heart i want them to be the perfect family to my sister but they have already messed that up. 4 Years of utter hell and all they care about is how them as an individual feels. I am mostly cconcened about myleena, she is only 18months. I love her and if there is another man i think my heart will break again for the 3rd time. I just pray every day that God can heal them and bless their marriage. I have a nervous heart, i dont know what God has instore for me. Mylife is his and he can do as he may with me.
-Alinda
Ill Fallow.
After him.
A lost innocent Female.
Afraid of my Parents outcome.
I love him, i just wish i understood his utter most.
I am a wife, and a mother, his lover.
What more is there to discover besided i have no more cover.
I feel as ifi will always be a no body. Im smart and tallented,... Maybe i am just settting my standards... is that what God is showing me to lower myself to settle.
A lost innocent Female.
Afraid of my Parents outcome.
I love him, i just wish i understood his utter most.
I am a wife, and a mother, his lover.
What more is there to discover besided i have no more cover.
I feel as ifi will always be a no body. Im smart and tallented,... Maybe i am just settting my standards... is that what God is showing me to lower myself to settle.
Just a note..
Dear Mike and Jane's Baby girls...
Little bundles of Love. Please stay in your mommy and bake a little longer! I Cant wait to meet you.. Expect me once your born to come and take pictures of u for mommy and daddy, that will be my gift to them from me since your mommy can make a quilt i can take beautiful pictures of you two preciouse bundles....
Ps. One of you must marry Noah...
Little bundles of Love. Please stay in your mommy and bake a little longer! I Cant wait to meet you.. Expect me once your born to come and take pictures of u for mommy and daddy, that will be my gift to them from me since your mommy can make a quilt i can take beautiful pictures of you two preciouse bundles....
Ps. One of you must marry Noah...
COME OUT
NOAH, Hunny please stop torturing me... i need you out by monday or else i will be stuck in lloyd while daddy is in cold lake for 2 weeks!
BLOG!
Im all moving into the new appartment ill post pics as soon as i have internet!
Hopefully i have a baby to blogg about at that point as well!
Hopefully i have a baby to blogg about at that point as well!
July 31,09 a difficult day!
One of my very close friends from Northern Alberta was murdered in May of this year.On top of that it was done buy her father. He killed himself, along with My dear friend Erika and her mother. I am feeling lost and sad Since we were born 28 days appart and she was so young. Murdered 16days before her graduation. I try and tell myself she is in a better place but that for some reason would be a lie on my behalf. I have no closure, i dont know where she is in a biblical sense, she was far from a christian... But i love her non the less. Maybe it is my fault she was not saved. I wish i could try and show her more of how wonderful God is but she had this fear of going into a church, i didnt fource it i wanted her to still be my best friend... We had soo many good times, and bad. I sit her sobbing over her death knowing the truth and hating it and blaming myself. I tried to convince myself that oneday we will see each other again and yet no comfort is found in that. Lying to myself can not bring back the past, or benifit my future... I love her with all of my heart and i hope that she knows that she was like a sister to me.
Animal L.O.V.E!
So Jeremy and I attended a wedding, Yes it was a beautiful wedding but i was aboslutly miserable so i brought myself my own source of entertainment... aka.. MY FANCY CAMERA!
soo i took pictures of cats and dogs and my husband....bugs, trucks, water, my swollen face, and i think that about covers it... soo here is the out come:
The Dreaded!
Why hello there my lonely Blog! How i have missed you! Where should i start should i start with the visit at the farm and how swollen my ankles were.. they were far from ankles... they were how do i say it "CANKLES"aka what older women get and their ankles seem to disaper... It is so very upsetting... Note to self: Dont go to wedding when your pregnancy is almost over!
Rainy Day*
It is pooring rain here yet again. I dont mind it makes the house nice and cool.
It is so peaceful knowing that we will be out in our little town soon. I cant wait for people in lucky lake to meet Noah! Especially Mike and Jane, since their pregnant too!!! I was so excited when i found out! Deep down i hope their having a girl :P cause then noah and baby pauls can get married!!!! Silly right. Little hands, little toe and little nose, soo cute!!!
♥ alindadawn
It is so peaceful knowing that we will be out in our little town soon. I cant wait for people in lucky lake to meet Noah! Especially Mike and Jane, since their pregnant too!!! I was so excited when i found out! Deep down i hope their having a girl :P cause then noah and baby pauls can get married!!!! Silly right. Little hands, little toe and little nose, soo cute!!!
♥ alindadawn
Unconditional Love
Its crazy how you can love someone you haven't met,
Knowing that it is only 59 days till i get to meet Noah is crazy to me.
It was just yesterday that i was 9 weeks and worrying if my baby was a boy or a girl.
It is getting scary everyday knowing that i have some one that cant live without us.
Knowing that his daddy is extactic everyday, and praying that he'll be okay.
I cant wait to hold him... and to get to know his every movements and feelings.
♥
Alinda Dawn
Knowing that it is only 59 days till i get to meet Noah is crazy to me.
It was just yesterday that i was 9 weeks and worrying if my baby was a boy or a girl.
It is getting scary everyday knowing that i have some one that cant live without us.
Knowing that his daddy is extactic everyday, and praying that he'll be okay.
I cant wait to hold him... and to get to know his every movements and feelings.
♥
Alinda Dawn
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