Friends and Future

To my Dear Friends,

I know you are already aware... But I'm moving in 2 days. You have known that this was our plan from the start and yet we still chose to cling to each other. You have taught me so much, I was barely 18 when we met... I was just a wee one.  Now I like to think I am more mature(Not to mature though). I have had many great moments with you one of my greatest joys was watching your numbers grow, from 1,2,3,4,5 and so on  Fur Babies and Human Babies. EVERYONE of these moments have shaped who I am. Sometimes I failed at being there for you. Sometimes I lost sight of the bigger Picture. There was many moments I felt alone and you picked me up. Some of you are old enough to be my parent and sometimes it was a huge relief to have someone like you to treat our family as if they were part of yours.  I appreciate the freedom and thoughtfulness each and every single one of you has shown me and my family. This is not a farewell this is one step forward in our relationships and sometimes relationships can't handle the stress of it being long distance... and that is 100% okay... EVERYTHING CHANGES. I hope that you don't forget our good moments and learn from the challenging. I hope you love people the way that you loved me. I hope that as the moments pass you have memories flash of our joy and I hope you plan on making more with me even if I am not here physically because I'm only a phone call away. I will feel joy when you are joyous and sad when you are sad. I will love that we get to be friends and get to share all of our adventures. One thing thats been sticking with me the whole time is  "friends come and go." It wouldn't matter if I was here or you moved first... but one thing that doesn't go... is our memories. I have this unbelievably broken heart to be leaving you. I love you and your family as if they are my own. I remember waiting up to hear if the baby was born. I loved staying up way to late and sharing oh so many laughs with you at the wee hours of the morning. I love how you brought so much HAPPINESS to my life.This blog post is to remind me that even though things are changing... it doesnt mean that its for the worst. Everything changes everyday... you grow a day older, you walk and talk a little different... and its okay to EMBRACE CHANGES....


Your Friend who hopes your future is as splendid and full of joys as you have made my life shine in the darkest of moments.

Part A : from urban to rural

On So we decided the Sunday before Christmas that we were going to surprise momma and papa Epp.  Well that went with out a hitch. Getting to our new place was more of a challenge. Problem a :truck ran out of fuel (actually the front gas area had ice in it so it froze) paid 60$ for half a jerry can. Merry Christmas kind man whom helped us!  Problem b; all the stores were closing because it's christmad Eve and we needed diapers. Found a store that was open and it was glorious! Then we drove 1.5 hours and made it to our new home. Unloaded and unpacked a bunch!  It's a little insane knowing that I am in the process of going  urban to rural!  We had to buy a fridge just a cheap plane fridge(trying to be frugal and be aware that I don't always need to have the best of the best.) we got Lydia's room all done and I must state that it is quite the improvent!

Before

After:

Packing

Packing seriously is not a fun time. Especially so close to christmas. I have a ton of laundry to tend to and boxes to haul out to the garage. It's a pain to have to move all these things!  I wish I just got to buy everything new. Not only would that be horribly expensive but it would be hard to leave the memories attached to some of our stuff. Last night we looked at  old family christmas cards from the last 6 years and it's awesome to see how much everyone has changed! 

I plan to have this wall staked very full of boxes. 

Moving

When I look at you I see the time that has passed. I saw my babies grow here. Yet it's all changing. I've known that this is the plan and what we have always wanted. It's hard to walk away from the place we have always been, this is our life and now it's changing... Maybe I'm clinging maybe I'm being selfish... It's hard to leave; it's hard to walk away. 

In excited for new dreams and new memories to arise. I'm in the moments before you rip off the band aid and you know pulling it off is gonna hurt so you do it fast; your whole body tense you mind preparing itself for the struggle but you know once the band aid is off the skin will breath  and all will be well again. 

I can't wait to have new moments and  see who God has made us to be in this new old place. It's new to me and home to you,  it is all we have ever wanted and have continuously made due with what had been placed in front of us. We had a fairwell and I know we are loved. I wouldn't change any of this tension before the band aid is removed because I would be doing it without you.